When you let go, Ill let go

So i know i havnt been around for some time now
But im sorry
running is what i do best
as most of you may know
Anyway, i dont have that much to say really.
Just a few updates for a few people
and maybe some feelings

UPDATES
Well, i have officially gone insane ....
But you already knew that.
stayed out real late last night, had things to take care of
MOST INJURYS HEALED, so Autumn and Kitt can CALM THE FUCK DOWN..=) love u
Uhh
want to go to fear fest
not allowed
am bored
Made sure everyone is safe, well tryed
Fought with Jake, we good now, i think, but he still wants me back. *Sighhhh*
Looked at marinas blog today and cryed
i miss her
I miss all you guys really
Kat, i will see you, no matter what it takes
Well thats about all i guess
havent done to much


So i guess all thats left is to let go,
well ill try
in the mean time
i gotta get my life back together
Starting with friends


~Haunted -Evanescence


~Nightmare <3

JULIET IS COMING HOME TODAY!!!

OMG
Im so excited
u never know how much u miss someone untill they leave and go to England!
JULIET!!!!!
We are going dancing this weekend
Me You Kat Autumn and Kitt!!
Autumn and Kit are still trying to figure out if they can go or not!
Hell i dont even know if YOU can go
Whatever
WER GOING!
Ohh well,
i missed u lots
and i cant wait to see you
WOOOOO

lLlOvEe

~RIleY!rIOt~

~Just dance -Lady Gaga!!!!

VOTE FOR SAM!

http://votes4sam.webs.com

VOTE FOR SAM AND SEND HIM HOME,

He needs all the help he can get so show ur support and vote once a day!!!!

:..:.SNAIL MAIL!:.:.

Okay so ive come across a shit load of stamps, and you know what that means!!!



I NEED MAILING ADDRESSES!!!!!



Kat- I have urs ...somewere?? GIVE IT TO ME AGAIN!!

Juliet- YOUR IN ENGLAND! THATS LIKE 50 STAMPS lol ohh well, give me ur adress bitch!

Autumn-I HAVE URS TOO!!!

Sage- Autumn gave me urs to!

Honestly- I have no idea were u live! so gimmi ur adress! WE CAN BE PEN PALLS LMAO Xp

Jinx- I dont ven know, i heard ur in China =p

Rae- I know were u live!



And



TYLER ALEXANDER MILLER!!!!

I swear to god, if u dont call me! I WILL HUNT U DOWN AND CUT U UP!!

That is all

~All to myself -Marianas Trench

~Riley!Riot!

Darling, what is going on!?

Hi again
Still at cottage
I GOT MY BOAT LICENCE!!
I drove the jet skii yesterday
and am doing it again today =D
It is really fun
Going into town today
will be fun
gonna buy stuff
The only store in town is giant tiger,
and dosnt that store just wanna make u steal half the shit in it??
Only half tho
ill pay for HALF
but scrunchies??
Why the fuck would i buy scrunchie?!
Lmao
well i have to go
imma go on jet skies again!!

Ohh and to u guys


Juliet- Byee hun ill miss u, have fun in England!!!

Honestly- U do LIVE MILES AWAY, from my cottage at least =p AND hOW ARE MY KIDDIES!!! have u seen any of them, do they miss me!!! how are the inter girls??? i miss it there =(

Katt- Antonio lives in scarborough but he has a cottage like on the next street over from mine =) u didnt meet him cus he wasnt here when u were =p. I wont use big words so u dont get confussed lol miss u to kitten

LOVE U ALLL XOXOXOXOX

~Situations -Escape the fate

~RILEY!RIOT~

Age Difference???!

So im at my cottage, and you know what that means!!!
ANTONIO!!!!!!
=D
ohh i missed hi so much
and his bro
but mostly him
>.> so what if there is a big age difference between us
we can still have fun right
lmao

So ive decides to become a hit man....
hit woman...
anyway....
Comming home in about a week
am doing so much up here
im beat
I SACRIFICED A FISH!!!
lmao
miss all u at home and Honestly... wherever the fuck u live =p
will write again soon

~She wolf -Shakira (MY NEW FAVORITE SONG!)

~Riley !Riot~

Sleep time

well im back.. i guess
Not to happy about it
i havent written a blog on so fucking long
im much to busy
but Nora keeps yelling at me =p
so here it goes


Hi everyone, im fuckin tired from working at cam all day
i have to go to dairy queen at 7
SO COME EAT MY ICECREAM PEOPLE!
im bored right now
everyone in ma house is sick =(
it smells like puke
i think i have sunburn

Rebecca/Kat is comming down tomorro, i miss her
She needs to blog mor
we will tag shit
Yahhhhhhhh
I want ice cream
im such a winer
Blahh blahh blahh
ill stop now and post when i have somthing importent to say



OHH YEAHH
i forgot the whole reason i went on here was to write a blog for Karine to see!
HI KARINE!!
This is my blog lmao
Come join our train!
Its fun most of the time lmao

gahh now i have to think of a song!!!
Ummm.....
Papparazzi ~Lady Gaga

There

~Riley

Waking up in vegas.....

Well this is close enough
I wake up to find im grounded..
and ull never guess what for
I climed on my roof.
How u ask?
Well apperently i went up a tree ><
Yeahh im special
I hope it was worth it
I cant do to much for the rest of march break
Jesus im special







I wish i could pinpoint my emotions towards people...
I hate being confused
Falling in and out of love
It sucks

Falling.....again....

Okay okay you got me
i do like him
alot
But you cant stop me =p
Yes i know hes wrong for me
Yes i know this will end badly
But i love him, and cant help it anymore
I fell for him once and it blew up in my face
And now im falling again.
I know im terrible ><
I realy miss him!
Love you Jacob!!



WTF JUST HAPPENED!
Okay Andy is a spaz!
He jumped Tyler after school today
What the hell
I was fucking worried
Lucky thing it ended pretty quickly.
No one was hurt =)




Juliet and Isabella are comming to my wonderfull house tonight!!
Only cus im not allowed at Juliets house!
Stupid parednts!






RIP Marina

I miss you baby, you will always be in my heart<3<3<3<3






Fuck my life.
What do u do if your skitzo?
You deal right?
Well what do if your OTHER HALF IS BI!!!!????
I DONT FUCKING KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHH
THERE ARE PICTURES!!!!
IM POINTING AT U NORA!!!
lol

I dont know ><

I think im going to go to ed early tonight
Im not up to much
I dont really have anything to say
I wish that you could understand me
I wish you knew the real me
I know now that cant happen
I dont realy know why im writing this ><
I guess this is goodbye

Song

~Eyes on fire -Blue Foundation

~Riley

Its not so bad =/

Well today is valentines day
I hate valentines day -_-
I want to sleep
But i guess its not to to bad,
i did get chocolate
AND i am going skiing with two of my good friends =)
So i will live
whatever whatever whatever
Im having a bad day tho
I have a terrible headache
From sitting to close to the flippin move screen watching friday the 13th
my neck hurts
But i love skiing
so its all good

=)

SONG

Dreaming of you -The coral

~Riley

Yeah i wish.

Sorry Autumn, not dead.
Death would be so much better than this.
I have not written nothing cuz someone who i dun want reading this, may be reading this
If you dont want to here this shit
THEN DONT READ MY BLOG!!


And the other people, WHO CANT KEEP A FUCKIN SECRET

...GO fuck off..

Thats all i have to say

SONG!!

~Gone forever -three days grace

~Riley

We are what makes us right.

I know i havnt written a blog in forever, but my computer was broken
...Much like my heart

Anyway let me get on my blog for today!!

I will start with my mom

Dear woman whom i call mother
I fucking hate you, i wish u would die
i dont want to see u again so stop asking. go to hell u bitchy hag. U are such a selfish person it makes me insane. Me and my sisters dont want to go to ur house, get that through ur thick head. U have ruined my life, its that bad, all those times u attemted suiside and i had to call 911 and all those times u freaked out and broke shit, i blamed myself, and im paying for all that now. I have never had any real friends because we moved around so much cuz ur poor, now that i stoped seeing u i have friends. So go die i hate u, ect




There now for the next person to yell at..

Dear Juliet
U lied. Thanks for that, i know u know and u didnt tell me. Its not even the issue that makes me upset, its the fact that u lied and tod me u would tell me if u knew, and u did know, but u didnt tel me. See if u hadnt said u would tell me if u knew than i would be okay with this, i understand that u have to keep secrets and such, bu no u LIED to me, and i dont like that. So whatever....


There i think thats all, for now at least. im not going to school today becuse i keep throwing up because im so stressed. I cant stop bleeding from the cuts i gave myself, the cuts i made to stop the stress. I guess sheading blood helps in a way....

Song

~Best of me -sum41

~Riley

Stilll solving my own love problems...

I got this comment
comments:
Juliet said...
Riley, I always have your back, i know the feeling of heartbreak and all that wonderful shit but honestly, this quote applies so well here.
'Everyone says love hurts, Rejection hurts, losing someone hurts, missing someone hurts but in reality, it's love that can cure any heart ache and make anything better again.Don't even give up on love'Love you (L).

Im sorry Juliet, but love cant cure my loss
I have tryed to use love as the cure but that made things worse
so i gave up
and i think thats whats best
maybe love is only for humans
i guess im not as human as i thought
love is just not ment for me
and i can deal with that
i guess
its not that bad
i mean holding myself together and all
i can deal'

Loves

Song

~I found you _the frey

~Riley

This is to much like a bad love story..

And since i have already had my fair share of bad loves
Im just gonna give it up
If i hve to stay then im not going to dig myself into another hole
not after the last hole i was in
i cant stand it anymore
Im just going to have to deal with it though
No more love for me
im giving up on all my relationships
No more love for me
Friends are friends nothing more
No more love for me
so there.

I am officially no longer in love with anyone

Its like theres a hole straght through my heart, and i have to hold myself together to keep from falling apart.
Its pretty bad at times
When its quiet
And my mind wanders
But i'll get over it
Sooner or later
Well thats all

Now i have another problem!!
WRITERS BLOCH
FUCK I NEED HELP
i've got nothing!!
I cant think of anything to write and its eating at me
Like i have the erge to write and get it out
but when i have my pen in hand my mind draws blanks!!
Ist pretty bad!!
I guess i'll just have to wait for Kat
Horay she comes on friday!!
Im fucking excited
i miss her a lot
and she is good at getting rid of writers block
we help eachother out most of the time
we like to write together
=)
shes like m sister
Miss yah Kat!!

Have a song today, cus i was in a rush and forgot one last time

~Angel -Sarah McLachlan

~Riley

Walks alone

Today is not a verry interesting day at all
I havnt done anthing exciting
not at all
Im at the library right now
and this gay computer keeps highlighting all my mistakes
its fucking gay
Heather is currently CREEPING in on my blog
and snickering
TEEHEE
Juliet and Tyler are currently off somwere
(Probly flirting =P)
Shes gonna kick my ass for that
ohh well she knows its truee
LMAO
i think im grounded again
woooo
lol
i dun no what i did this time
or any time
lol
ohh well im gonna go befor
the others come

In the distance, there is a light! Its at the end of all your tunnels!!

I dont have a lot of time to write
But i do have somthing to say
I dont think im going through with my former plans
Ohh well i know i know
NO BODY HAS ANY IDEA WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT!!!!
lmao ohh well you will never know
or will uou
=p
i guess i can tell you
oneday
wen you leas expect it
muahahahahahahah
im so evil
i know in my head i should kep these plans
but my heart says NO FUCK THAT!
and right about now my heart is stonger than my head
=p
so being the selfish person that i am
i will give you the news
........THE NEWS IS
(AND Juliet will be verry excited!!)
ill wait till shes not looking
.....
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Ther KAY THE NEWS IS
IM NOT LEAVING!!!!!!
well not yet at least
i have a few good years here =)
and i realize now that people here need me and i dun wanna leave yet
i like it here
i have things to do
so i will stay
for as long as possible
ur lucky im in a good mood
and i dont want to have to explain leaving to tyler =p
and i dont want to leave Juliet with that news
so IM STAYING HORAY



Have a song

~Beautiful day -U2

Loves you all

~Riley

Letters to loved ones <3

I was reading Autumn and Juliets (YOU ARE THE WORRY ONE)blog
And i want to write a letter to!!!
Im speciall!

Dear Triell

Wow i never acctually thought about writing a letter to you, you seem so far away, so far in the past. I wish i could find you, bring you back to me, just stay in your arms contently. It seems like forever ago we met and i miss you so much. I still love you, and i know oneday i will find you and kiss you one last time.
Im sorry i never said goodbye i had to leave and i wish i didnt. I will come back and look for you. love isnt love without you. I want to run with you again, feeling wind on my face and the ground beneth me. I want to sleep on those riverbanks and bath in thier cool waters. I want you beside me forever. I want ti hear you voice and feel your touch. I think of you every day and theres so much i regret.
I love you Triell and i dont thik i will ever stop.

Love always Riley




There i feel much better
Ahhh getting that off my chest was good
I should do that more offten
And maybe one day ill get up enough corage to acctually mail one
Thanks for reading guess

Song
~Love Story - Taylor swift

~Riley

Forsaken

I thought it might be nice to write somthing random on here
like how stupid i think the world is
GOD i hate it

Well thats all i need to say
so have a wonderfull day
happy hump day to all

Heres a song

~Lies -Evanescence

~Riley

This is the last night you'll stand alone.

Spoofy cat loves you...

Hey
Im having a bit of a problem.....
And i dont know were to turn
I cant go back
and i cant move forward without going back first
if i stay were i am people might get hurt.
Im pretty sure the two people who are reading this will understand completely
Im sorry juliet ill explain later
You too Autumn dun worry its all good ill tell u asap dont kill me when u find out tho kayy =S
I know what ur gonna say and yahh I KNOW. Shes not a problem so dun worry so much dont break ur computer now!!
ANYWAY
Kade has gotten out of hand
Juliet i hate the bunnies in ur yard
i busted up my shoulder chasing one
i sliped
i think u were asleep cuz i was fuckin loud =p
I feel as if someone is trying to talk to me
i dun no it wired and i need to get together with u guys
Autumn asap !!!!! we got to deal with Kade!!
and Juliet soon
as soon as exams are done
and we will go to 16s house
lol
JULIET i will call you tonight and fill u in on a few lies ive told =S
Autumn calm down ill tell u all tonight too!!! Jesus!! u freak
U gotta be in the loop soon lol
Anyway i dun no whats going on with anyone so thats all i have to say
Im sad and depressed and dont no why
i need a hug =(

Love y'all
Ohh heres a sone
~The last night -Skillet

~Riley

I hate the way you look at me

OMG Mere said i can go to Amandas party!!
Im so excited!!
WOOTWOOT
Now i just have to find somthing to were
and shoes
fuck
i want a taco
mmmmm tacos
I wanna go out tonight
realy badly
I got invited to a few places
but i dun think my parents will let me go =(
Blahh
I like my music
I like it a lot
Today at lunch i sat with tyler and andrew in the stair well and we just blasted music on tys speakers
i like a lot of music
I wanna download more
Fuck slow computers
I hate school a lot
i miss my friends!!!!
SO imma dedicate a song to all mt friends

Juliet, Autumn, Kat. Avery,Triell, Jake, Ty, Allie, and those others out there
I dedicate the song

All the same -Sick puppies

LOVE YOU ALL

~Riley

Fuck Dresses

Good Morning

I dont have very much to write today
Im not that interesting
Im still realy hoping to go to my friends pary!!
OMG somthing terrible has happened!
I lost my Grr-Owl pajamas!!
I cant find them anywere!!!
IM SCARED!
there all alone somwere
pooor grr-owls =()
Im probly gonna write another blog when i ghet home =p cuz i may have more things to say
And its all morrning right now
IM SOOO TIRED!
i was up late again last night
Stupid!!! ahh i hate u!
Kay im good
I AM NOT WEREING A DRESS!

THANKS TY for teaching me snaps!!!!
hahaha Andrew still dosnt get it

Juliet
FUCK YOU IM NOT WEREING NO DRESS!
YOU CANT MAKE ME
HAHAHAHAHA
i dun think i can come to ur house
ill try and call u tonight
maybe U SHOULD CALL ME WENCH
lol
love yahh

Autumn
WTF I THOUGHT YOU WERE ON MY SIDE!
BITCH!!
IM NOT WEREING A DRESS
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!
Yahh i no i didnt talk to u but i was a little busy
ill try again tonight
Love yahh hun

~Riley

Writting on the walls.

Hello
Im having a problem.. i had to write this twice cuz i accidentally deleted it ><
ANYWAY to the point
I have an idea
I want to get people to read this blod
And there not gonna stuble accross it randomly
SO i need to give'em a little push
LOL so heres what im going to do
Im gonna Graffiti!!!
lol
I will write the web address around everywhere i can!!
All i need is a shit load of sprey paint and sharpies!!
I know what ur thinking " why do we wanna hear all u shit problems??"
Well heres the answer
BECAUSE I SAID SO!
no no no dont worrie
Im not gonna be writting all about my problems
Its everyones problems im interested in
Why do i even wanna share my problems
Pffft
anyway and its not just problems i give... its advice to and events and everything like that
You can post a comment and ask a question i promis i will answer!!
so come on people what are u waiting for
ive got a lot of time on my hands
LETS GO!
if u read this leave me a comment
and if u found the web address on a wal let me know =)